an icky before...

me, without flattering posing and without sucking in my tummy. in shorts that i WILL fit in by my bday beginning of january.

ick. click if you dare.

posted on 11-20-08, 1:49 PM sexy and in shape

well that's not me yet, but will be by 2009. COUNT ON IT!

so i realize that since july, guys i like haven't liked me back. and guys that do like me, aren't really my type. i hate feeling like i'm settling, so what can i do about this disparity? assimilate!

more like, just be who i wanna date. i like all the awesome things that i'd like my significant other to like, so all that is left is to just be more in shape. i realize that i can't really diet, because i love food too much (one of my passions), so i am going to start being more active. mornings? i get up at like 7 most mornings anyway. i just need to stop watching so much tv...

watch for before/after pics soon!

posted on 11-17-08, 3:51 PM being single on weekends

i have come to the conclusion that people always reserve friday/saturday nights for close friends and people they actually dig.

in this bout of singledom, i don't think i've met anyone new who wants to give me their weekend nights that i feel the same way towards.

it's like junior high all over again.

posted on 11-05-08, 6:40 PM why i'm not voting

ok, before you start to flame me for my ignorance, blah blah blah, understand that in this great country of ours, we have the freedom to not vote too. so by antagonizing me about not voting, you're antagonizing my freedom, which is one of the things you're voting for in the first place.

but seriously. my mother won't let me change my address to los angeles even though i live here, for the purpose of car insurance rates. but then today, my friend brought up the point that i could have mailed my vote in.

well... i guess i don't feel qualified. i have not tuned in to watch the debates or hear the issues. i really don't know the different sides. and even if someone say they'll do something, would they really do it? people are so liberal here, and just yelling "OBAMA" this and "OBAMA" that. but have they all really sat down and researched both sides with an open mind? i'm sure a lot did, but i'm also sure that a lot didn't. if we're voting for one side just because your peers are saying it's the "right" thing to do without truly understanding what you're voting for, isn't that just bastardizing democracy?

all i know is sarah palin is an airheaded MILF, bush is an idiot (and i'm glad he can't be prez again), and obama's steadfastness is pretty outstanding. it's time for a change, but the traditional idealistic principles of the republican party appeals to me more than the democrats. so, i don't know. i mean i DO know what i'd vote for if it was JUST THERE for me, but the benefits of voting just does not outweigh the trouble i'd have to go through to get myself informed, register to vote up north, then have my mother send me my stuff, then send it back in, and so on. but the big thing is really understanding things. if you don't vote intelligently, you might as well don't vote at all, right?

i know i should have been more concerned enough to try to educate myself on the issues. but given the results of the past elections, i already know that democrats will take california. and in the presidential, it's the electoral that counts, not the popular. so stuff like what happened with bush/gore could just happen again and all you fine folks in california that DO vote today will take care of my apathy. thanks!

posted on 11-04-08, 5:20 AM burger stop #2: South on Wilshire

http://www.southsantamonica.com/

it looks very nice inside, upscale enough but not to the point where it would intimidate me. a good amount of people for a tuesday night. we sat ourselves outside so we don't have to listen to the bingo loudness inside (i wanted to play, but decided to just enjoy the food and the company).

ordered burger, medium, with all the fixins. peet has a way of making fun of me so that i dont' feel all offended. the burger was a good size and barbeque-y.

things i liked about it:
great burger/bun size ratio. the burger meat fit the bun just right and is flat so that it's easy to eat.
the meat was thick and filling
the overall flavoring of the bbq sauce worked for the buger

things that could have been better:
the meat was less juicy than i would have like.
the meat wasn't really seasoned at all. just decent slab of meat
not enough cheese for the size of the burger

when will i learn to start ordering my burgers medium rare instead of medium???

posted on 10-10-08, 10:49 AM lady conrad, live last saturday at relay for life

i start singing around 2:16

posted on 10-02-08, 2:32 PM relationship karma from years and years

i think it's biting me in the ass now. there's only so much rejection a girl can take in such a short time before she feels like she's totally broken.

esp when it comes to show that all the excuses were just to make me feel less bad and was all bullshit.

i wish i could be good at being just friends, but it's just so hard.

the stress is really getting to me. that lump on my spine that i was told was a cyst years ago, is now hurting and not at its old place anymore.

i woke up hungover and ate two things of instant noodles already. i can't stop thinking about food.

i wish that myspace had a way of deactivating my account without deleting stuff. facebook does it, why can't they?

i think i give up.

posted on 10-02-08, 12:23 PM moving, burgers and injuries

this is my last week at the current place, our lease was up at end of september. dan is moving back to his old place and i'm moving to a cozy small room 2 miles away at an artsy place with cool people. i don't know why i have so much STUFF. i really have so much stuff. i wish i wasn't such a packrat, but i take after my mother and i just like to keep everything. all my big items are there, but i still have to move over some clothes, toiletries, tupperware, kitchenware, a lot of food, and my pets along with some various other little things. then we have to clean the old place and i'm never good at stuff like that. and moving. ugh. last time i moved i had a whole month to trickle stuff over. i can't move my cat over until i get screens built for the balcony, because cat is sneaky and i don't want him wandering around a neighborhood like that. justin agreed to let cat stay with him. i hope he gets along with gadget!

so after that "how i met your mother" episode about the best burger in new york, i've decided to officially start my own quest. the first place i tried since that episode was at the Arsenal on Pico. the "arsenal of flavor" kobe burger. it was pretty damn good. usually i find myself craving father's office just because i like their beers and cocktails. but for some reason, a burger isn't really a burger unless it has tomatoes or at least a LOT of ketchup. and you don't put ketchup on the office burger, so it doesn't really satisfy my animalistic hunger. anyway... the arsenal burger has roasted tomatoes on it. and it comes with this sauce thing that i mix with ketcup and i spread a little on the bite i'm about to take each time. it was pretty good! but something happened that night that made me not remember the burger as well as i should have, so i think i have to go there again before i can write a review. lucky devil's in hollywood is really good too!

yesterday i made the best burger i've ever made that didn't have tomato in it! it was a perfectly runny fried egg on top of a burger patty seasoned with garlic salt and worcestershire sauce, topped off with cheese and a piece of lettuce, in between stove-toasted buns. i mixed up some ketchup and some japanese kewpie mayo and put some on the burger right before each bite. the egg made a mess cuz i've never eaten a runny egg burger before, but after i cleaned the initial gush, it was soo good. omg. i think next time i'll put the egg next to the bread so the bread can soak up some of the runniness. but that's definately something i'll remake.

what happened that night was that i rolled my ankle. i've never had it happen to me before! i was stepping off the seat to go to the bathroom at the arsenal, but i forgot that there was this huge step down. so i stepped unknowlingly, and boom! actually there wasn't much of a boom. if i didn't grab hold of those barstools ahead of me, it would have been boom. i have bruises on my right arm from the fall and a really swollen ankle. i literally cried for 2 minutes at the bar, then i stopped cuz i wanted to get a cigarette so i stopped being a baby. i think the alcohol numbed the pain, cuz i didn't feel too bad about it when i got home. i went to bed around 12, but then i got up at 2 to go use the bathroom and i was in SOOOO much pain! i it was exponentially worse, and that night, i couldn't even hop around cuz the blood going to my foot and the jerking motion would have made it unbearable. i had to literally sit on the floor and drag my ass around. it is better now, but i still have a limp cuz it hurts and it still looks nasty.

oh i finally have new photos in my gallery after half a year of no updates. you can see my ankle there.

posted on 10-02-08, 10:13 AM the big bang theory

so this is one of my guilty geeky pleasures. i dvr and watch it whenever i can.

so i'm watching the episode "the pancake batter anomaly", and i haven't laughed so hard at a tv joke since... i dunno when.

so here's the scene at the beginning of the episode: sheldon and leonard are playing 3d chess, and sheldon wins again. and leonard asks to reset table, and then dialogue, dialogue, then sheldon says "It must be humbling to suck on (waves his hand down the chess set) so many levels". that shit cracks me up ^_^

on another note... and i feel horrible about this... i was cutting miya's hair just now, and i accidently cut a huge gash into her. i didn't think it was bad until i looked at it afterwards, cuz she didn't even make a sound, she just pulled away when i nicked her. so i needed to look for something to cover it up, so i took a cotten pad and a cloth headband and a safety pin, and hence her current state.

posted on 09-11-08, 5:58 AM maybe

by Secondhand Serenade

Didn't you want to hear
The sound of all the places we could go
Do you fear
The expressions on the faces we don't know
It's a cold hard road when you wake up
And I don't think that I
Have the strength to let you go

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

There goes my ring
It might as well have been shattered
And I'm here to sing
About the things that mattered
About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long
About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

And someday, I promise I'll be gone
And someday, I might even sing this song
To you, I might even sing this song, to you, to you, to you
And I was crying alone tonight
And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you
So just come back we'll make it better
So just come back
I'll make it better than it ever was
I'll make it better than it ever was

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe
That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving
And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face
Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place

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sorry...

posted on 09-05-08, 3:20 PM